Good talks.

I had an interesting talk with danny and jr the other night. i basically got told that i need to work on stepping out of my element and not have one type. i know i only stick to one type and i know i'm way too shallow. and i know its gonna get me no where in the end and i'm gonna be lonely for a very long time. but i don't know though, i mean i look at is as not settling for less. i'd rather wait for someone i can absolutely fall in love with and be happy with them instead of dating around casually. but i also can see myself never being happy or being satisfied because i do put my type up on a pedestal. i don't know i just wish it was easier. i'm tired of chasing. why can't a guy come after me for once?
also i need to work on my social anxiety. i mean it's not that i'm a bitch or that i'm insecure because i'm actually very genuine and i actually am very happy with who i am. people just don't take the time to actually get to know me. because apparently i already have the reputation of being a bitch. i'm not, i'm just funny and sarcastic. i like to crack jokes and get people laughing. plus i think its so hot when people can get there panties out of a bunch, let go, and laugh at themselves. it's very good character. so i have no idea why i let my anxiety get the best of me. i mean, yeah, sometimes i get in one of my moods and i like to sit back, relax, and observe but then i don't know why i get stuck in the mode. sometimes i feel like everyone is talking shit about me and i know thats a sort of cocky and arrogant thing to say but it's true. now that i think about it, really, maybe i can get insecure...? i need to figure that one out and work on it. :)