oh where, oh where did you go?

i'm slowly losing my fucking mind.
i can't seem to get a hold of my motivation. i can't find my creativity. i'm so stuck with this shit. i know i told myself that the official due date would be the beginning of fall. but now that nothing is coming, i'm starting to feel extremely pressured. i'm just hoping that i can get it done by the end of summer. right now i feel like i need to maybe take a mini vacation to get my thoughts together. and get some stuff down for once. i know i've done a few things here and there, but it's not good enough....i think. and danny you need to get your shit together lol and help me out because i'm feeling all alone in this..
for those who have no idea what i'm talking about..i'm talking about my project.
also, it doesn't help that i don't have a car so that i can go and get some information about some things and i know what i'm doing isn't rocket science, it's actually quite simple, but in order for it to be simple i just need to get away, and go somewhere where im soooo fucking overwhelmed with inspiration that i start crying and my fucking heart explodes. lol jk but really though.
so my question is...does anybody know places where i can go to let my imagination just completely take over??

any freakin ways, i'm at work and the computer keeps turning off on me. it has sooo many viruses on this computer it's not even funny. i think it's great because i'll be talking to a customer and this random porn site will pop up on the computer. my customers probably think i'm a complete freak!! agh! not okay!
this guy came into my work earlier and he was one of those guys that had a "yeah you want this, and i can have you if i wanted to." attitude. i laughed because he wasn't even my type, and he went to my high school. i'll try not to explain my type because then you'll probably think i'm super wierd. lol and shallow. but i'll admit i AM super wierd...and shallow. i promise. lol
i just got an application for forever 21. i'm staring at it wondering if i should fill it out or not. i mean i love the store but im not sure if i would want to work there. besides i'm working 5 days a week at glow golf and that means i'll only be able to work 2 days there. im pretty sure that's kinda pointless. also the thought of working 7 days a week is completely blowing my mind!! but i'm insane so i'll probably turn it in for the hell of it!!
i've been meaning to blog about the freakin battery being dead on my laptop. so now i have to get a brand new battery, plus charger, plus get my compter cleaned, plus get a virus protector put on it, which i have no idea how much that is gonna cost me but i'm pretty positive that it's gonna put a dent in my wallet. :(
i've also been mean to talk about how much i wanna retire my monroe, but i've had it for so long, it's gonna be tough. lol but i am getting my nose peirced. i don't know if i wanna get my septum done or get my actual nose done...hmmm something to definitly think about...
also i'm trying to get ideas on my tattoos. i'm for sure getting my lip, wrists, and nuckles done. i'm thinking about getting both sleeves but thats for waayy later down the road!! :D
oh my gosh the hottest guy just walked into my work a little bit ago. :)) he looked kinda like spencer chamberlain but A LOT cuter! and then i saw another one coming down the escalators! haha danielle basically told me it's summer and they are all coming out to play!!
i'm so excited for summer though. moving out, LA, tour, road trips, SEATTLE, SHOWS!!, seeing my man! my dads moving back home! i have way to many things that i get pretty obsessed about!
so yeah, that's basically all i have to say. nothing really exciting. im finally closing for work. woop. :) and david just waved at me..haha random..what a goof troop!
i'm coming into work tomorrow for some extra hours...so feel free to stop by!! it's gonna be ashley and i working. AND ASHLEY, BIANCA, GLOW GOLF, BOREDOM, AND SUNDAYS always equals an INTENSE SCENERIO. bahhaha.