You pick the insects off plants No time to think of consequences

today was a good day :] despite the fact that it was crazy hot, and it didn't smell like fall anymore :/
i woke up and my dad was in a way better mood. yesterday we had a wee spat.(thanks to drama and stupid jealous bitches!) i always yell at my dad when i'm pissed off or angry. i need to work on my anger. sometimes the tiniest things piss me the fuck off and i blow everything out of the water. i usually take things to the next level when it's really not a big deal, and i usually lash out to the closest thing near me. whether it be a wall, my cell phone, or a loved one...hmmm. but yeah i should work on that. i never really understood where i get my anger from, it just happens from time to time..
anyways we drove over to my aunts house and no one was home so we had to wait outside for a little while. then boo face called me and i went to go pick her up from her class..she passed her test. congrats babe! i was gonna go to the water front with her and john but it was way too hot and my car was being a baby.
i ended up going shopping with danny. we needed to pick out outfits for mondays show! we are so pumped for it! it's almost surreal that it's only 2 days away! we are extremely nervous and we don't really know what to expect. anyways while we were looking through the racks, the subject of Christofer came up. and we were talking about it and all of a sudden my recent crush (who happens to freakishly look like Christofer) walked right past us and asked if we needed any help. i just looked at danny and i was like ohh my gosh that's the guy i've been talking to you about. ahaha. it was weird. i didn't know he worked at the mall...oh man! anyways danny ended up picking out an entire outfit, which happened to be extremely cute. and i picked out a cute floral top. i haven't picked out the rest of the outfit. but i have a good idea on what i'm looking for. but i have today and tomorrow to go shoppin. so i should get on that!!
danny actually came and hung out with the crew tonight. she's been sucha freak of nature lately.
lol but it was really awkward tonight. idk why, maybe because i wasn't drinking...well actually yeah i'm pretty sure that's why. it's really hard to quit cold turkey and i usually always end up going back. some days it bothers me, and some days i could care less. tonight it bothered me. bleh! but i'm actually kinda glad i didn't drink and drove home sober for once. ever since tony died, i always feel like a hypocrite for drinking and driving. and for risking my friends lives as well. yeah, i never know what's wrong with me. i'm kind of a fucked up kid. i'm working on it though :)
anyways i need to go to bed. it's almost five and i can barely type anymore. i need to work on my sleeping routine. i've fucked it up again :/
night
xx