I keep telling myself I’m going to change. I tell myself as often as I tell myself how sad it is that summer is ending. Nothing… has really… happened. I understand its all under my terms but it makes me sad knowing I’m stuck in… stuck in this tornado or vortex, if you will, of nothingness! I’m stuck in this never ending cycle of getting nowhere. It gets me down and when I try to get back up, its like the devil is kickin’ me back to the floor. I know I can overcome this, I just need to make the choice to do so. There are just so many obstacles in the world—especially being someone like me—boy do I get off task quick. I want to change… and well, I need to change. Its no longer a matter of whether or not I want to. I need to change if I want a future. I need to change if I want the future I want.

I seriously will start pulling it together.