if you're still alive. my regrets are few. if my life is mine. what shouldn't i do. i get wherever i'm going. i get whatever i need.

i've always gotten excited the day before my birthday but that's because i was always a teen. technically i still am, but tomorrow i'm gonna be 20 and i'm really not looking forward to it. when i was a teenager i always couldn't wait for my 20th or 21st but now i just don't wanna get older. i just wanna stay young forever. being older means responsibilities. and i'm far from responsible. i mean i was always excited for birthdays because that meant i was one year older to being on my own, it meant another year to start fresh. just like a new years resolution. i always put high hopes in my birthdays hoping to come out on top and be where i wanna be and do what i wanna do only to find out my next birthday i'm doing the same damn thing i was last year. i don't want another year of regret and failure. i don't know what the future holds, i just know i'm done putting hope in my birthdays.