strike another match, go start anew.

it seems like ever since i got back from cali no one cares i'm home. they talked and talked about how much they missed me and how i need to move back home and now that i'm here no one cares. actions speak a lot louder then words and it's all talk now. i'm sick of it. it just makes me wanna move again. but i'm not going too. i know who has been there for me no matter what, you know who you are and this doesn't have anything to do with you. either i'm just being bitchy, or i'm just being real. i'm tired of dancing around everything. i'm tired of being nice, and scared to raise my voice in hopes of protecting every ones feelings. i've been every ones lifeboat for far too long. i've cared about everyones feelings that couldn't give shit about mine for far too long. when they were hurt, i was hurt. but not anymore. that shits over and done with, because now that i need help, everyone scatters. stupid shit. i'm just planning to drop all the shady people from my life here pretty soon. it's time to start focusing on myself. i need a new life and new friends.
p.s. if you are offended by this, blow me.