broken. how much for happy?

seriously, like all i wanna do is change. do my own thing. love and care for myself. be a better person. follow my dreams. move on. be happy for him. he's obviously happy and has moved on. i figured out that the only reason i'm not happy and hold back is because of him. so in reality i'm making myself unhappy. i wanna be happy. i just know that in the end God did this for a reason and he saw that being with him wasn't good for me and was making me unhappy. i just need to forgive him and move one. maybe forgiving him is my closure.
happy.happy.happy.happy.happy. lots of happys in this blog haha. annoying.