Everything in this small washed out town is tearing me down and wearing me out.

I have so much to figure out and I cant do that here. This is exactly what i fear, but this is exactly what I get and I won’t admit that I fucked up once again. Dear friend, dear someone; Take me somewhere far away. I’m getting desperate and everyone keeps getting in the way of me actually doing what I want. I’m doing what I’m not, I forgot what i want and everything’s tacky. I’m completely broke and I keep changing the price on being happy.