It's not quite the same as when i do it. It's who i'd like to be though. But hey, i'm on my way.

so today i basically slept all day. idk when i sleep in sometimes i feel guilty. like i could be out and helping clean or be doing something productive with my time like looking for a second job or information on school or taking my dog for a walk or something, anything. but no, i just lay in bed. it's stupid to feel guilty i mean it's my life. but then i think what am i really giving up to sleep? idk. maybe nothing to be honest. nothing grand ever really happends to me anyways. i just kinda swing life away. i guess it's my fault though. everything that has never happened to me was and is my fault. because i didn't take the time to go out and get it. sometimes i really think i'm all talk. i dream about these things that i want so bad, i talk about these things, i write everything down but NEVER do i actually do it. it's honestly really pathetic. also, i think i'm getting back in that 'i just wanna be alone for now' stage. i honestly thought i was through with that part of my life. i have an idea why i'm starting to become this way again, and again i can't blame nobody but me. because i'm not really doing anything about it, really. hopefully that changes soon.
Life is a stage on which we all play. The world is a symphony of sarcastic lust. I'd like to be a part of the global game but I'm left behind in the dust..