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I really can't help it anymore, we both opened up a can of worms. You started this cause and effect and now I'm falling like domino's, fast. You said all these things that I never in a million years would have ever expected. You said you didn't think I would ever reciprocate but I did and now you're all I think about. I really didn't know what I expected from it all happening and that hurts because I guess deep down I felt like something would bloom from it. I know you feel it, this really weird, strange chemistry, you said it yourself. I know you're with her, but are you really happy? No, because you said it. And when you were spilling your guts, all I wanted to do was hug you because I know what loneliness and losing sparks feels like. I'm not sorry I did it, because I wanted to. I wanted you. I still do. I am sorry that I complicated things, really, from the bottom of my heart. I'm just really fucked up, as a human being, really. I have Daddy issues and my Mother isn't that great of a role model when she's done the same damn thing. I can't blame them honestly, they've done their best. I will say it's fucked me up deep down and it takes a lot for me to admit sometimes. I do drugs, I'm an alcoholic, I'm mad, I'm sometimes manic, sometimes depressive, and I hardly ever eat. I know I'm seriously getting off topic, but I just feel like I can tell you anything, that's how you make me feel. I don't need to be saved, I just need you to let me know what you're thinking or feeling. That's really all I'm asking. Or maybe all I'm asking is that I feel you're kiss again, and your hands again. It was too emotional for me, probably the realest thing I've felt in years. I felt it, I felt you. I know you wanted it just as bad as I did. I just miss you already and it's only been 2 days..Please just let me know.