Honestly I'm kinda fed up with all this advise but never a sign. Should I stay? Should I go away? All to find the better half of me.

Sitting out in the cold smoking a cigarette listening to Chris Drew sing some tunes. Perla is chilling in the back seat and I can honestly say today has been a drag and boring day. The weather is gettin to me. I'm leaving thursday night after my appointment to California. I can't wait to see family :) Hopefully it's nice and sunny! I have been deciding about going back to school lately. I have too much time on my hands, but I can't seem to decide which direction in my life I wanna go. Stay and go to school or leave and chase my dreams...I'm sort of torn..we'll see. All I know is I'm sick and tired of sitting around waiting for things to happen for me. I'm 21 with nothing to show for. I pray that I can find some direction soon.