February 8, 2011

I'm back there again. This is exactly what I had feared; I didn't want to move on from the first love of my life and then go back to being completely torn open again for someone else. You ruined all the progress I was making, but not anymore. I'm taking you down from that pedestal and I'm moving on from you. I'm coming to realize that it wasn't you in particular that I miss, because you were never that great to begin with, it's just that feeling of purpose..a reason to get up in the morning..a passion for something..anything. Something to work for, something to accomplish. I was letting my walls down with you and you lied to me, that's what also hurts me. But now I've found something else, something to really push myself for, something to hope for, something to look forward to. You didn't take my faith away. I may have taken a long time to let my walls down for you, but I'm gunna demolish those walls for this. It's all I've ever wanted and I'm gunna get there. I'm gunna look back on you and laugh because I went for something I wanted, I'll be successful, God's gunna bless me..and you'll still be here, ruined and wishing you had never fucked up. Good riddance, man.

You're gunna be the one to push me outta this town.