Failing

I haven't been able to update on anything lately because I haven't had internet. Mostly been able to post random pictures. Currant Status: Living with my best friend, Danny. Unemployed and not attending school right now. Looking for a job to save money to move to Los Angeles with Danny. I'm going to be leaving my whole life behind; my family and the very few selective friends I have left. I've burnt so many bridges. I like being alone. No drama and time to focus on ME. I'm going to be leaving all my memories behind, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I'm gunna make new memories, good, bad, and ugly and I'm so excited to finally find something to wake up for. Passion, love, life. I'm gunna miss all of it though, I'm gunna need to cut the cord from my father. We need to learn to live on each other's own. I think it's gunna be equally hard for both of us..but we'll be juuuusttt fine, I know it.

I'm currently at my mom's house with Melanie watching Two and Half Men. I had my surgery on Wednesday. I'm finally able to eat whatever I want and not get attacks anymore. I'm still a little paranoid and I'm still in pain, but hopefully I can keep up with the same diet I have been and continue to lose weight, start working out, and quit smoking. You know, get healthy finally. I don't want this life lesson to pass me by. I wanna learn from this incident. I'm aiming to weigh 105 by August and be tone and healthy :) Well I'm waiting for the cookies in the oven to be ready to consume and continue on with the rest of my night...what give me a break, I haven't been able to eat a whole lot of junk in a very long time..he he

xxxxxx