So I've got a very big decision and it ain't gunna be easy.

Lately, shit's just been hitting the fan left and right and I'm about to seriously go ape shit and kill little animals...But really though, I think I'm going to put college on hold and get a job or two. My dad's been a real prick lately and I know it's just because he's just really stressed out, with the house, with doctor bills, and all the other fuck'n expenses that just seem to be piling up around here. As much as I want to continue going to college, I know that I can't; it's just another expense that we honestly don't need right now. I want to be able to enjoy college and actually learn something, but I can't learn shit when I'm constantly stressed about never having any money to help out my dad. When my dad's stressed about money, then I'm stressed about money. It's honestly a never ending cycle and I'm just about close to being at my breaking point. I can only take on so much, I can only be so perfect before I start fucking up. As much as I try, it's really never good enough...I know what I need to do to fix the problem and I'm not asking for permission.