I finally got my wish to see you :) I was kinda surprised how it happened too, but either way it happened so I'm not really complaining. Every time I'm with you, I seriously try and take it all in and just try to live in the moment. I thank God for the moments spent with you, even if you don't know that I like you, yet. I just always feel so comfortable when I'm around you, except when you talk about how fine other girls are, then I get closed off, stray, and flirt with other guys. I don't want to do that, I wanna flirt with you, I wanna talk to you, I wanna be with you. I'm just so afraid to kinda let down my guard right now. I've held it up past the sky for 3 years, and it's scary to break down those doors to let you in. But I'm trying, every time I think about you, your retarded laugh, or your smile, or when you hug me, it just makes it all worth it :) You just make me feel so full and alive. I feel like you're worth it, and take that shit in, because not many people have ever made me feel that way.
It's amazing how up up up my life is looking<3 My next wish is for you to start falling for me, please.