Count Your Blessings

In the last month or so, all the broken pieces from my life are starting to come together again. My dad is home! We got our apartment, and i was able to pay for purlas surgery. I've just been soo happy i could burst. I wake up each morning thanking God that he hears my thoughts and prayers and knows my heart. I have so much to be genuinely thankful for. He's blessed me with so many amazing things and has answered countless numbers of prayers. :)) And i know He's very sneaky but i love it :)) (haha The MAINE Jesus? seriously?! Did NOT see that one comin!! ....and 112 vans in less then an hour and a half?!! i mean c'mon! lol) but anyways i'm just glad i'm getting in the right mindset...because it's been awhile when i actually wanted get out of bed and LIVE. WAKE UP, you know? I'm loving my life right now, and i know it's just going to get better from here. As long as i have my family, my TRUE pals, and God to back me up i know in the end everything is gonna be 100% ok and i don't have to fear anything.
Yeah i'm gonna have my dark days...probably always will...but it's something i'm trying to change.

p.s. shasta...we've been friends since your sophomore and my junior year. We have been on and off, but like you said every time we hang out again, it's like we pick up right where we left off. It's never awkward or weird :)) I'm glad we started to hang out again, like OLD times!! and i know we're going on our fourth year pretty soon, and as much as i know about you, you don't know half as much about me. But i genuinely mean this when i say it: It's not you, it's me! haha i'm queer. but seriously though even though i don't tell you everything, you still read me like a fucking book and you legitimately care about how i'm feeling deep THE FUCK down!! And that's scary to me. I'm not used to that and you know this. But it's something that i honestly need to work on. You're my actual pal and i love you inside and out. (especially out, when i'm looking at you from behind :)) But also on the inside because even when i have my temper tantrums, which is pretty often, you don't care. You blow it off because you know i'm just acting like a complete pussy. Ive probably broken every rule in the book in our friendship, but you still stuck with me and looked passed my flaws..and you NEVER EVER gave up on me!! :)) And that is why i thank God that He put you in my life. You're the one that's gonna get to me, lol i promise you. LOVE YOU!!
xx