-L.M. Montgomery 

Happy October!! It's already starting off on the right foot and I'm so thrilled with what this month holds :-)! Lots of big exciting, scary changes and I cannot wait for them! Feeling this autumnal season. Xx

It's already been a year. He's in town and spent the night last night and leaves in a week. It's oddly strange how the past can repeat itself.

I'm going to spend the rest of the night drinking hot coco, watching Casper and resisting the urge to eat a bag of chocolate candy! Agh!

Morning.

Hi, I'm super healthy.

Being up before 6 AM blows.

These boys transcend me into someone else, I love them for it.

For fucks sake,

The amount of celebrities that annoy the shit out of me is astounding.

Ugh, eating always makes me feel like pure shit!!!

Addictions have not made me stronger.

I made a huge confession to one of my bf's last night and he started crying and I was crying and it was just one giant mess. I told him I was going to try to get better but that it's become very hard at this point. He said he believed in me and was trying to understand where I was coming from, not what he assumed it was and I really appreciated him for that. I'll admit I was pretty fucked up when I got home, I was way too drunk and frying. I took a shower and tried to lay down and go to bed but I needed to pee so I went to the rest room and then all of a sudden things didn't seem normal and I knew something bad was gunna happen. It was like I could see my brain, like all the lines inside of a brain, I could see all of mine. So I got up and everything went black and I passed out, and then I just remember saying "wake up, ok, don't die." And so I tried to stand up but I couldn't, literally every time I stood up I passed out cold. I remember waking up on my bathroom floor and saying, "no, you're not gunna die like this! get up!! And I remember thinking to myself 'I cant go back to the hospital for this shit again, my dad is going to be so pissed!' I came too and I don't know how my lights in my bathroom turned off or how the bathroom door opened but all I remember is seeing Perla and she was frantic in front of me while I crawled to her and she started licking my face. And I just remember thinking I can't die, she needs me. So then I woke up Eder and his gf and they watched me for a little before I went to sleep, I just remember them asking me what I took and I kept trying not to fall asleep in case I hit my head. I finally told them I was gunna go lay down and I told them to check on me and make sure I don't die. I just have never passed out before, it's like everything literally goes black. All I remember is the noise my body made as it hit the floor it was like hearing a gun shot and now I have bruises on my cheekbone and scratches and bruises all over my body and I keep finding new scratches and bruises every time I stand up or lay down. Now, I really can't decide if I was like passing out for real or my body was dying or some shit, it was one of the scariest nights of my life.

Can I write you. Can I hang out with you. Will you come over and sleep in my bed and hold me? Can I kiss you again? Just want me, please.

My room smells like sage. xx good night.

Haunted bones.

I like you. I like you. I like you.

Seriously.

If love is so hard to find, why is it so easy for us to throw it away?

"You should take photos..do photography."

Taking some advise from someone for a change. I think I may start an October photo a day challange or something :-)

I picked up my room today for once and rearranged a bit

Went out and bought some candles today, I was craving holidays scents so I got Pumpkin Spice, Apple Cinnamon, and Cinnamon Stick. I'm so excited for my room to smell like Fall heaven.

I can smell Halloween in the air outside. Is this a weird thing to smell?

Carmen San Diego.

Happy September.

Currently sipping peppermint tea on my back porch watching the stars and staring at the Moon. The clouds are out of sight and she's naked tonight. My pup is rolling in the grass and dogs are barking in the background. I can smell the sweet scent of the Earth. The nights are getting colder and I can feel Autumn slowly making it's entrance soon enough. I wish I could sleep outside with Nature but I'm just trying to be here, right now, in this moment, as much as I can.

Keep the kettle warm.

It's been a while since I've used my vampire mug that I got at my work about a year ago, peppemint tea is a brewin!

I miss you Glow Golf.

i wanna snuggle with my pup and drink hot cocoa