I wish I had more motivation to do the things I wanted to really do. I wish I could be more of this 'I will' person that I'm supposed to be. I'm just always tired, and nervous, and fragile, and so melodramatic and hysterical. I can't get a grip. I just want to make beautiful things, I want to use my hands. I want to hold your hand, I mean, I want to transcend into something magical, I want to kiss your lips. I want my moment, I want you. It's my turn.