VW at BDubbs. Yes lads.

Birdie.

"To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance."

Birdie and I went out and got some crystals yesterday, Calcite Gree, Aqua Marine, Dravite, and a grounding stone. I'm starting to realize that I'm working on a journey through Self and I feel really good about it :) I also got a bundle of Sage because my house needs a cleansing emotionally and spiritually. A lot has been happening in such a short amount of time that I'm not surprised that I'm starting to find a way to live a better life, to find peace and balance. There is so much that I need to work through, but it doesn't seem overwhelming. I know I need to start facing my demons. I keep telling my Self that I'm not ready to let go of my addictions and burdens that physically and emotionally hold me down, but deep down I know I am. I keep learning new things everyday, I'm just excited about this new found passage through life.

The Moon makes me feel weird.

Cutie.

Celestial Awakenings with Birdie.

Bear hug /// New Journal.

I find this attraction to destructive people. I'm drawn to them. I guess because I can find myself in some of them, in the pit of their stomachs, intertwined in their rib cage, breathing from their lungs, thinking their thoughts.

My art.

Mint Tea in Vancouver with Mum.

Dabs says the darnest things.

I like my fair share of shit faced nights but some nights I like to stay in and think of all the beautiful things I'd like to do with my life. Think of who I love and who I miss, think pretty thoughts and think of what I stand for. Mostly I like to drink tea, watch tv, sleep or read.

Should I be destructive tonight? Should I be constructive with my thoughts? 

It all can be so seductive.

Oh shit, I'm finally famous.

Cutest Bitch Ever!

Old lady club.

Best friends.

Knocking myself out.

Robert Schwartzman. NBD.

Things I wanna do but can't make my mouth water. My eyes are red and tired.

 Some days are better than others.

Catch your own dreams.

Haven't updated this in a while..

I keep having dreams about Devils. They're all woman.

Currently: Looking around my room realizing how filthy it is and how I need to clean it but don't want to. I need to take out all my shoes and clothes out of my trunk and hang them up but I don't want to. I left my ID and debit card at work and had a million things to do today so now I have to grab it at work tomorrow to do all these things. I need to schedule an appointment to get new contacts but don't really wanna go alone. I'm sorta kinda starting to admit to myself that I like this guy but he's currently and probably forever will be unavailable, so I find ways to bash him in my head to make myself not like him. Maybe I just need to get layed or something. I can't quite figure out if I'm just horny or alone, probably even both. I've realized that I don't really care about some things anymore, but then I realize that I really do care about them but I'm too lazy to fully care about them. I think this part of my life is called Spring Cleaning: Physically and Emotionally. I have a million things to do, I'm late for all of them.

Oh. My. God.

Babies planking. We start em young here in America.

Begging.

Happy Pup.

Lilly.