"She said maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you baby."

We should of gotten out of here a long time ago. I'm just over all this. I'm not happy and I'm slowly losing my mind and just can't think of nothing else to do but cry. Chris has been texting me non stop and I need for him to realize that if I'm not texting him back that I clearly don't want him in my life anymore. I blame him for everything. If it wasn't for him I would have chased my dreams a long time ago. I would have been out of here by now. I'm just tired of being alone. I'm tired of waking up alone. You should be here and it's not really fair. I have too much love in my heart to share only with myself...I think I'm just determined all over again. It just sucks, like my heart sighs so much for you :( Idk, I just feel so bored that I could start being reckless with my heart and the heart of others, and just give my heart to someone totally random and then I'd feel horrible. I'm just getting so ancy and feeling all caged up...uuugggghhbllaaaaahhhh! I'm just totally bipolar at the moment...I need him to get outta of town and stop trying to get a hold of me and I still miss you and I'm over feeling like this..