Starting New Year's a little early :)

#defbromo

Clearly, I know what I'm doing.

Sickness.

Suckin Dick Trick

To all of the bitches who pray I will fall, keep coming right back I don't care at all. Middle finger in your face get out of my way. I know I'm gunna show you at the end of the day. That I will rise, I'll be at the top. Don't tell me to slow or ask me to stop. And you're gunna see, I'm gunna be me. I'm gunna go hard and be all I can be. To all of my bitches that have stayed by my side, I love you to death, I know you're down for the ride. And to all of the cunts who beg me to quit, suck my dick trick and get off of my shit.

You're music may be the shit but that don't mean you can become some asshole cos it can be taken away from you just like that. The memo: Cockiness is overrated.

#stayhumble #staytrue

Ill with want.

Just a *few things I need to get.

Rugs

Candles

Thrift Mirrors (Square, Round)

Beatles poster

Vinyls

Chenille fleece throw

World map

Andy Warhol

Keep Calm, Carry On poster

Garbage basket

Cute Hamper

Coat rack

Bathroom rack

Jewelry holder

Closet rack

Wolves

Bob Dylan

Nirvana

Kurt Cobain

Cats

Explore/Discover

Cross

Fear & Loathing

Fight Club

Wood hangers

Shelf to hang cameras

Photo frames

Paint brushes

Drawing books

Window Curtains (White, Cream)

Comforter (White, Cream, and Brown foux fur)

Floor Lamps

Wall clips to hang up hats

Chair from Birdie

Lounge chair and ottoman

Ottoman for blankets and throws

Pillows (White, Cream, Browns)

Rug for Bathroom

Dresser

New desk

Office supply holders

*And by few I mean a bunch of useless shit that actually tickles my fancy

I need this in my life.

I dare you to let me be your one and only.

I just want to be surrounded by beautiful things, beautiful people, and a beautiful life. Call me vain. I just know what I like and I will not settle for anything but. I just want you to make your way towards me, I’ll meet you halfway if I’ve got to. I just want to travel anywhere you go whilst holding your hand, we can figure the rest out along the way. This is what I want. You’re what I want.

i’m ready for a new start.

i’m ready for september.

i’m ready to start classes.

i’m ready for california, and london.

i’m ready to love you.

i’m overly ready.

it’s almost 5 in the morning and i’ve decided i need an ice cold coffee and i feel the need to make some cupcakes…because i’m lonely and i’ve nothing better to do with my life and i don’t work today and i like run on sentences and incorrect grammar.

Fill these in as best you can. If you want to.

best friend: birdie

soft touch: my ginger truffle

scapegoat: atmosphere

fallback: i have no plan b

role model: lindsey lohan

crush: ben, obvi.

protector:  my gat

idol: mk olsen

nemesis: people who don't believe in me

doppelganger: jeff bridges

protege: helena bonham carter

bete noire: ex lovers

hero: alcohol

Christmas is over!!

That shit kray.

Our version of Coraline.

Pups & Scarfs.

Take It Easy..

It's 6pm and I'm going to spend the rest of my Christmas evening drinking tea, listening to tunes, and cleaning out my room. I'm extremely lazy today and usually that annoys me but it's ok today :) Mum took us kids out to breakfast this morning. We came home and watched the kids open presents and enjoyed the holidays!! It's been an absolutely fantastic day and I'm just genuinely happy and content right now. Although, you could be here, that would be nice ;) Who knows what else the evening will bring..don't work for the next two days so I'm down to fuck shit up!
xx

She's picking up my weird ways...

Mum's in town.

Mom: "I got you a present" Me: "It better be alcohol."

"We're both on a pixie dust high!!!" - Momma

Merry Christmas Ya Filthy Animal!

Downed 2 in 10 minutes...I love the holidays.

She's always right.

Canseco house :)

Childhood.

Merry Christmas Eve...

..spent at the vet :(

<3

Pizza & Misfits!

He helps me to get over
my hills, these mountains
That keep me.
And no, he ain't no you
But that's a good thing.
And I've had my doubts
Yes, I've been here before.
But he pushes me forward
and keeps me wanting more.

A love like that,
well, there's no turning round.
I know what I want,
There's just no going back.

He helps me get over
He helps me get over, you.

Lying to myself gets me nowhere, I've made no progress. I could tell you everything, but would it really matter? You're leaving and would you really care? I know what you're doing, you think you're being slick and trying to make it harder for me. You have to have me now and you're afraid I've moved on, you're afraid I've forgot about you, you're afraid of your worst fears coming true. You're confused and hurt and alone. I know this because we're the same. I know you like the back of my hand. I know you more then I want to know you anymore. I refuse to let you win. It hurts me more then you'll ever realize, it hurts to be strong.

My little poop stain.

Ass Clown.

Home Is Wherever I'm With You..

Cute.

"She said maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you baby."

We should of gotten out of here a long time ago. I'm just over all this. I'm not happy and I'm slowly losing my mind and just can't think of nothing else to do but cry. Chris has been texting me non stop and I need for him to realize that if I'm not texting him back that I clearly don't want him in my life anymore. I blame him for everything. If it wasn't for him I would have chased my dreams a long time ago. I would have been out of here by now. I'm just tired of being alone. I'm tired of waking up alone. You should be here and it's not really fair. I have too much love in my heart to share only with myself...I think I'm just determined all over again. It just sucks, like my heart sighs so much for you :( Idk, I just feel so bored that I could start being reckless with my heart and the heart of others, and just give my heart to someone totally random and then I'd feel horrible. I'm just getting so ancy and feeling all caged up...uuugggghhbllaaaaahhhh! I'm just totally bipolar at the moment...I need him to get outta of town and stop trying to get a hold of me and I still miss you and I'm over feeling like this..

#speeddial #ain'tnoshame

BWW!

<3

Onesie :)

A little AA on a Friday night :)

#dirtybirds

I hope you dance.

Song of the Night:

"I understand because my heart and hers are the same."

Seems like so much has been going on lately! I'm way too exhausted to bare full detail about my life, BUT I will say I'm pretty happy and stoked with the direction it's heading! I'm sort of nervous just cos there is so much going on! Eep! Eep! Life don't slow down for no one, especially a gal like me..I've just decided to stay in the fast lane, might as well. Sooner or later, I know I'll be burnt out, but I'm enjoying my journey so far and things are only looking up from here. (knock on wood.)
Birdie and are looking at talking to a lady about some classes we wanna take! I'm hoping things fall through as planned with that! I quit my job at Pier 1! Good riddance! I started my first day back from training school at Chase, I was so wrecked with nerves..but at the end of the day I balanced. I'm just hoping the following days go just as smoothly :) Pearlie ran away a few days ago, that wench! I think it's just another line thrown, I just gotta start spending more time with her. I know she misses me :( I'm glad I quit my job just cos I'll have that extra time to slow down a bit maybe and be with her. I was pulling my fuckin hair out when she was gone! Ehhh ehh! Glad she's home though! I've nothing else really to talk about...Christmas is almost here and I still haven't done my Christmas shopping yet...the girls and I have decided to hit up the outlets this Saturday, kind of excited! I just've no idea what I'm getting everyone! I need to make a list ASAP.
Anyways that's it for me, I need to head to bed. Who knows if I'll get rest tonight, I just feel like my life is a full on exclamation mark right now and I just wanna burst with joy !! (which i've noticed i use a lot of !!!! lately.) Must be a good thing. I'm happy but missing you. Sweet dreams. xx