i’ve been comparing my life to the life of others lately and i haven’t liked what i’ve seen. it seems as though everyone is finding there place in the world and knows exactly who they are what they want and i just keep dwindling along, not having a clue about who i am and what i want. yeah some things have come into play for me and i’m grateful but it’s like i could be them and be happy. i almost feel like i got left behind while everyone’s been perfecting their lives and i’ve just been sitting and waiting and wishing and watching and then it hit me…this is my fault for being so behind in life. i haven’t taken each opportunity that has been thrown my way and i almost feel like i’m running out of time. everyone keeps telling me i’m so young and have so much time to do what i want but i don’t feel like that at all. i’m 22 but it’s like what..the…fuck. i feel so old and i feel like it’s now or never to do everything i want. i think i’m just scared that i’ll never accomplish what i’ve wanted to accomplish in life and it makes me want to cry..if my 16 year old self could see me now i’d be in a heap of trouble. i think i just need to make up for the past 6 years, it’s time to make her proud.

starting a new goal list..it needs to get done.