Happy Birthday Sweet Lou & Happy Halloween!

Celebrating with friends and all the spirits/orbs. Obviously, I'm the witch.

Happy Halloween!

Watched the Halloween movies on AMC, dressed Perla in her witchy costume, and passed out candy to the millions of kids in our neighborhood, ran out, and had to go and buy more !! This is our first year so next year we will definitely be prepared! Perla greeted all the kids and parents and everyone loved her costume! She's so adorable! I got ready for Ryan's Birthday and headed out to Danny's. We were both witches, obviously. Should have took photos but of course I didn't :/ Only ones of P Dawg, which she wouldn't look at the camera, typical move.

Bought this light up owl from my work today! So Happy!

"Light up the darkness."

I'm currently in my room listening to tunes, with candles lit, and delving into my second cup of passion tea :) I ran so many errands today and got a few things done and out of the way. I currently got offered the position at Chase Bank! I'm so excited and so nervous and so grateful! This is going to help out a lot I believe. So today I had my appt. with Heidi for Chase, bought black and white ink for the printer, made payments for Home Depot, bought Perla dog food, came home and was planning to clean out my car but decided to save that for tomorrow if I'm off. I finished my on boarding for Chase, and now all I have left is my drug and finger print tests to complete and boom I'm done :) I must say this hiring process is quite intense!! Phew!

My dad is currently in California! I keep waiting for him to walk through the door from work. I miss him :( But I just keep reminding myself that he's getting grandma and I'm so excited I could cry. This will be the second time meeting her! She's so tiny and adorable and has long beautiful hair!! I really hope she loves it here! It will be her first time in the states, it's going to be a whole new world for her. I'm going to absorb every second and take as many photos as I possibly can. The first time I ever went to Mexico and the first time I ever met my grandparents, I took my brand new camera I had bought and took so many photos, then my drunken mess self ended up losing it; now I have no photos of those memories. That is the one thing I will always regret. :|

Anyway, 3 more days till Halloween and I don't have to work! So Happy!

Snapped a shot of Presley sleeping, cuddling her bear :)

Lit a candle in my bathroom and wanted to display some various rocks and seashells my dad and I have found throughout our trips to the beach or fishing trips.

Noah, minus all the other 139,842 cats that surround the door at the farm.

Carving pumpkins, baking pumpkin seeds, drinking Mexican hot coco, and spending time with my family and pup. Feeling the Halloween spirit :)

Bleeding candles before...

Goofball!

Julie carving a pumpkin!

...Bleeding candles after

They turned out delish :)!

You taste like whiskey when you kiss me oh, I'll give anything again to be your baby doll.

Love today:

Had to pick out an outfit to wear to my interview tomorrow...

..But of course being a girl, I tried on every cute thing in the store.

 Want these fine gems sooo bad :(

Today Danny and I went to Celestial Awakenings, which is a new age store, to check out crystals. I have fallen in love with this place..definitely a second home..

Later at night we drove on officer's row and decided to get out and take a stroll, we found this creepy bunny sitting lonesome on a sitting bench just like this..very strange.

The supposed haunted Marshall House..

I didn't have my camera on me today, so these phone shots will just have to make do :)

open book.

i come off as an open book but in reality there is a lot i keep secret. i don’t know why i do this i guess it just makes it more magical and mysterious for me. it keeps me thirsty, it keeps me yearning to learn more.

i go back and forth with really being more exposed or keeping some things hidden; with emotions, with my interests, with who i really am. i’m working on it.

Water in a Mason Jar. Cutting my bangs. Asteroid Galaxy Tour. Past 12AM. Delirious.

i wish i was different so much that i wanna cry.

i can't find happiness.

Little Monster.

New coffee mug.

i’ve been comparing my life to the life of others lately and i haven’t liked what i’ve seen. it seems as though everyone is finding there place in the world and knows exactly who they are what they want and i just keep dwindling along, not having a clue about who i am and what i want. yeah some things have come into play for me and i’m grateful but it’s like i could be them and be happy. i almost feel like i got left behind while everyone’s been perfecting their lives and i’ve just been sitting and waiting and wishing and watching and then it hit me…this is my fault for being so behind in life. i haven’t taken each opportunity that has been thrown my way and i almost feel like i’m running out of time. everyone keeps telling me i’m so young and have so much time to do what i want but i don’t feel like that at all. i’m 22 but it’s like what..the…fuck. i feel so old and i feel like it’s now or never to do everything i want. i think i’m just scared that i’ll never accomplish what i’ve wanted to accomplish in life and it makes me want to cry..if my 16 year old self could see me now i’d be in a heap of trouble. i think i just need to make up for the past 6 years, it’s time to make her proud.

starting a new goal list..it needs to get done.

just brewed some hot tazo passion tea with crystallized honey. i’m sitting in my dining room and looking out the window at the trees and grey skies. the dog is barking next door. i love fall. i want to clean up and run a few errands: i need to make a payment at home depot; buy my candle supplies; cupcake and cookie supplies; grab a few canisters for flour, sugar, coffee, herbs, and art supplies; go grocery shopping, buy ali a stuffed animal from my work for her birthday tomorrow; and take those items to plato’s. But who knows, i may just enjoy the rest of my afternoon and evening drinking tea, having a smoke, writing my brother a letter, and catching up on some reading.
xx

Hot, hot love.

Song Of The Day:

Florence Welch is my spirit animal.This song is exactly who I am.

currently lighting my wood wick pumpkin spice candle. it's crackling and going to smell like fall heaven in my room soon :) also i bought a cute little girl piggy bank, i showed my dad and he laughed and then said she looked like me! hehe!

out with old, in with the new.

it's time for me to start thinking of how i want to decorate my room. my dad's in his room making my bookshelf and i'm clueless as to what color scheme i want to go with. so far i'm fighting between dark maroon, a very dark purple, and some oranges and yellows. blah. who knows. tomorrow is my day off so i'm taking a lot of things i hardly ever use to plato's and goodwill. i'm a bit of a hoarder and i'm usually very nostalgic about the things i own but i feel like it's just the right time to let it all go. i know once it's all done and over with i'll feel a tremendous weight has lifted and i know a few months from now i'll forget i ever owned them. eh. on the upside, i need to make space for the new items i’m going to be putting into their place :)

i got some pumpkin spice wood wick candles from my work today. i haven't lit them yet but they smell soo good :) i'm already thinking of christmas presents and i found the perfect gift for my mom which i'm going to pick up tomorrow. eep :D!
anyways ending the night with some hot chamomile and cuddling up next to my pup with a good book.
xx

"you're gone, i'll think of you to get me through the years, i swear i won't forget you; darling i wish you were here." -Me About You