I never expected to fall head over heels for you pretty much. But I did, and I can't change my mind now. Just stop making me so damn jealous! Not okay dude. It's crazy to think I had a thing for your brother and that I always thought of you as the goofy kid, the one who I just looked up to as a brother, and now this. Funny how that happens..Keep giving me those butterflies :)

Excitement was building..going over the Astoria Bridge

Danny writing I <3 Bianca in the sand

Antiqued...This is what you get where you're the first to fall asleep.

...and when you sleep funny.

Better yet, just don't sleep at all.

Danny & Sweet Lou :)

<3<3<3

You know when people say, "I've got friends in highly low places." Well this is what they were talking about

So, we got back from the beach Sunday and it was nothing short of fucking incredible. The beach house just somehow has it's own way of bringing everyone closer together, in more ways then one, if you catch my drift. I just feel like that's what the crew needed though. Alone time with each other, and that's what this past weekend brought us. It was the perfect way to kick off the summer, and I just know there are going to be so many more amazing memories together <3 Life has been great lately and I'm just so completely and truly blessed. To Danny and all my boys, I love you and this one is for you.

Sometimes, I love the NW too much.

Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance.

Well I basically broke down to Danny last night. My dad and I had a talk about our living situation and I just felt like everything that I had dreamed about for my own future had vanished in seconds. I kept thinking to myself, who am I kidding? I mean I need to stay and help out my family. I can't go out and chase my dreams. I mean it may sound ridiculous but those were my true thoughts and feelings. I mean it's kinda scary when those thoughts come from me, because I kinda think of my self as a really positive person. I'm usually the one people come to when they need advise or a pick me up. And for me to think those foolish things, well it's just really out of the question. I've always been the one to grab life by the fucking balls and squeeze really hard, and when life didn't budge, I'd kick. When I want something really bad, I go for it. No questions asked. So what's the deal now then right? Idk, I guess I'm just not trying to feel selfish. Feeling selfish is pretty much the worst feeling ever. But that's kinda where I'm standing with my life right now. And that's just it too, I'm standing. There is no forward motion for me right now. I just don't know which direction I wanna take my first step toward. I'm just kinda...confused. Not LOST, just confused.

But I'm going to the beach with friends in a few hours, so hopefully I have the weekend to get away and just kinda refresh. Hopefully by Monday I have a sense of where I wanna lead my life. And if I don't, that's ok too.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder

I keep telling myself that I've experienced so much and that I've lost my innocence when I was younger. But in reality there is still so much out there that I can do, so much more to experience. I've been held back for so long, and when I look at the big picture, the only person holding me back is myself. I don't ever want to lose my sense of wonder...

We're getting there, we're on our way.

Just had a work out with my cousin. It's so nice to be able to workout and confide in him about personal, personal, issues. I've told that boy every little thing. He doesn't make me feel stupid or worthless, and most of all never judges me. Here's to you Omar, Love you man!

Well we've made a plan to work out 3 times a week - taking baby steps, eat to live - not live to eat - no more junk food, no more smoking, & drink lots of water. We've made our commitment.

110 pounds here I come :)

If I let my OCD take over, I'd be one fucked up girl. You'd more then likely find me fucking weird or bizarre.

But, then again I feel like I'd be one happy, happy mess.

For some reason this photo really moves me. I guess because it reminds me of endless hours of fun and the movie Adventureland, which I wanna watch right now.
Anyways, I graduated on Saturday :) I can't believe it's finally over! Three years later, at 20 years old, I graduated from high school! HA! But hey, at least I did it. Now it's time to move on to my next step..Here's my plan...
Find a job
Urban Outfitters
Diners
Sephora
Gain knowledge and experience in business, retail, managing, and marketing.
Target Date: July 31, 2010

Start taking small steps to save money for college and for investing in my business.
Target Date: August 15, 2010

Next, look for local small business where I can interview owners. The interviewing process was uplifting and very inspirational. I want to keep that motivation going.
Target Date: August 31, 2010

Next, I need to check out college courses that I can take at Clark. I'll need to take classes in business management, communications, marketing, and fashion.
Target Date: Fall 2010

Take courses in areas that interest me such as cooking/baking, floriculture, music theory, writing, acting, and art. If I want to incorporate these areas into my business, I need to better understand them.
Target Date: January 31, 2011

I'm also planning on losing 60 pounds. For my height, I should be weighing 110, so now I won't stop till I get there :)
Target Date: Winter 2010
I guess we're back with La. :) I want to go to this acting school with Danny so we're planning on moving there. Omar wants to move with us also, so that should be fun.
Target Date: Not Sure
I'm really excited about the future right now :)

My baby Noah <3

First Day of Summer!

It's gunna be one to remember :) I can feel it in my veins.

Schoooool's out for Summer, schooool's out forever.

Been thinking a lot about making a change for the better in my life and what my next step is. I’m trying to be selfless for a while :)

Happy Father's Day!

Happy Father's Day Dad! I love you and look up to you beyond belief. You're the hardest working person I know and I'm lucky to have a father like you and be close to you. Not many people can say that, I'm blessed definitely. I'm so lucky to have a dad that everyone I know looks up to. You've done an absolute job at raising me, and going above and beyond, not only for me but for everyone. :))) My only goal in life is to make you proud! Love you padre!!

Love, Me

xx

Graduation Day!

Before. Getting ready.

Waiting to go in!

Quick photo with my Aunt.

 After..

My padre and I..I love you dad!!

My mom..love you mom!

Danny…hate you..jk..love you.

My Aunt :)

My goofy ass cousins..Omar & Eder

Go Grad!