Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy

So it's been over 3 years that we've started this stupid game. You were well ahead in the beginnin, but when it comes down to it, I win in the end. Dumbass.
Girl, you're a rebound and will always be a rebound. He may smile and say he loves you after you both fuck, but that's just it, you're an EASY LAY. And Don't pretend that you're both happy because you're a crazy bitch, and you BOTH know it. The only reason why he's with you is 1) because he's bored 2) because he's fucking miserable and 3) because you're a crazy bitch and he can't get the fuck away from you. I can't believe I envied you. I mean I FUCKING ENVIED YOU! But for what?!?! I mean you're holding on for dear life in your relationship. You're scared shitless that he'll come running back to me. And when I mean running, I mean SPRINTING HIS FUCKING ASS OFF! I mean think about it bitch, who did he follow when they moved to California? ME. Who did he break up with when he moved to California? YOU! Who did he text asking to hang out with when they lived in California? ME. Who does he keep trying to keep in touch with? ME. Who did he follow when they moved back the Washington? Me. Who does he always ask about? Me. So I repeat, SPRINTING. He can't keep his silly little paws off, and he's annoyed because I haven't gave your "boyfriend" the time of day. I also love how you switched the game on me and tried to be pist at me for trying to steal your boyfriend, when really you stole mine. Get over yourself cunt, because he was mine all along. I was and AM a lot of his firsts, and that fucking leaves you like a scared little bitch. You're waiting for the day when he leaves you for me. I mean I'm sitting on tippy top of the fucking world knowing you're threatened by me. :)
Also, how does it feel to know that no body even fucking likes you, because you're such a fucking queer. I mean YOU ARE A PSYCHO TWAT! All his friends, and your "friends" talk shit about you aalll thhheee tiiimmme. You'd have to be a complete dipshit to not have figured that one out yet. I mean, you BEG for him like the little pussy you are. That was me before, and that's what he needs to feel alive. But now that it's not me anymore, he's coming the realization of what he lost. Yes, I may have lost the battle, but I won the fucking war.
I'm seriously glad to know that you're miserable as fuck. I mean why do you feel the need to keep coming back to Washington? You even told me you weren't coming back, that you were getting a job in Napa Valley. Did that fall through like all your plans? This isn't your home and you know it. You keep floating from home to home, hoping someone will let you crash on their couch. And it's not just coincidence that you became an alcoholic when we broke up. But I guess we both know the real reason why you're here. I'm glad to know that I'm taking giant steps forward, while you're taking fatass leaps backwards. Or better yet, you're just staying place. Grow up. You are a pathetic piece of shit. And last piece of advice, NEVER fall in love with a rebound because that shit backfires.
I can't believe Danny and I have figured all this shit out in the past 10 minutes.

You need to get if he don’t wanna
Love you the right way he ain’t gonna
It ain’t where he’s at its where he
Where he wanna be
I don’t want yo man
Cause I got it like that
But it ain’t even gotta be like that
(Eh he he he he)
Yo man he be callin me back
Cause see I’m fine and a matter of fact
(Eh he he he he)
He asked how I do dat dat
Fit my jeans over baby fat
Listen
I don’t know the type of tricks he playin
But I should warn you I don’t want ya man

I understand why you wanna try
Make him stay home late at night
But if wanna go he’ll be gone no lie
I can’t explain how many times I tried
How many times I’ve cried
Thinkin about mine and where he might be
Remember when I gave everything I got
Couldn’t get deep down inside
How ya love someone who didn’t love me


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"I used to be a wanderer. I used to be carefree. I used to be an animal." - Me

Dead things.

This is our future apartment hopefully..

Goodbye Seattle :(

Everyone else likes to take in the beautiful scenery during nature hikes, I’d rather take pictures of road kill.

Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)

I can tell that you've changed. Now I'm just in love with someone I don't even know ♥
I actually painted this for someone I once knew...

Tomorrow, I’m going to Seattle. I can’t wait to look out of my future apartment and see water and the city <3

Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (Or nearly)

I dedicated this song to my ex boyfriend of almost 2 years, Only because EVERY single line is how it went down. It doesn't make me cry anymore, just gives me chills everywhere.


I wanna know...

Where were you when I said I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you.
Thinking of all the times we shared.

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Day 14 — A non-fictional book

I'm so excited to know that this was a book before it became a movie. Now I'm checkin it out :)

Day 13 — A fictional book

Planning on reading this book soon. :)

Today is Day 5 of no smoking..

I’ve replaced my cigarettes with blow pops..Total strategy.

Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy

I feel sort of high right now. This is suppose to be day 12 but I’ve been slackin..Whatever.

Well it’s 2:30 AM and I have class in the morning and I should be sleeping, but I’m not. I just got back from a midnight drive. Tonight was one of those nights. Where there was absolutely nothing to do, but you just find something to do anyways. Fun. So danny and I decided that instead of LA..Seattle. We’d be so close to home, and our family and that’s all the really matters to us right now. The whole LA thing is little overrated and I, quite frankly, feel homesick when I think of it. I feel like Seattle is just callin my name, and I’m happy with our decision. When I think of Seattle, I think of home and family and friends and the water. And of course the aquariums, clam chowder, shows, pike’s place, streets, buildings. Everything I want my life to consist of.

LA..Good bye.

Well I’m excited for Summer to be comin up. The air is getting warmer at night and I’m so excited. I can’t wait for summer drives, walkin barefoot, books, beach bon fires, camping, friends, family, being 21, bars.

 Ridin bikes...

Findin a Summer romance...

Beach Trips...

& Nature walks...

I only have one more month of school left. I turned in all my damn homework for my exploration class. 51 pages of shit shit shit. JK. I actually learned a lot. But I was a train wreck for about 2 weeks. Now I’m just waitin to find out my results and if I graduate or not :/ I’m hoping with fingers crossed. I feel I’m in this transition right now, but everything is definitely lookin up :)

I’ve been seeing my ex boyfriend and his girlfriend a lot, which is pretty much bullshit. I’m tired of him being in town. He needs to head back home to California. No one wants you here, nor likes you. Keep drinking you’re life away, you complete waste of life. Traded in my skin for cheap sex and tattoos. How does it feel to be an entire wreck and have a psycho bitch for a girlfriend? We all think you’re a joke, shove your hope where it don’t shine. Also, stop calling me and my friends late at night and leaving messages. Queer.