Photo Diary.

I had this zebra basket just sitting in my closet so I decided to put er to good use...

Introducing my reading nook ! I'm currently delving into Venus In Furs, such an addicting read :)

Bought a few things from Micheal's the other day. I'm planning on making some yummy Halloween cupcakes and cookies! Also, I got my dad this cute little snowman ornament for when Christmas rolls around <3

Got this gem from the dollar store. I was originally gunna hang it outside but I thought my room would make more sense, since it's either always dirty or I have weird things lying around.

My creativity wall which hangs all my paintings, and daily calender. 

Found this leaf yesterday, I was going to press it but decided to display it, which I wanna get a shadow box.

I left my Padre a little note in his bedroom <3 Which he just came into my room and showed it to me..hehe..Love him!

"I'm ready for my close up"

I thought I'd post a few shows I'm absolutely obsessed with and would love to be on someday :)

vampire diaries

criminal minds

the secret circle

ghost whisperer

A Haunting We Will Go.

the kids :)

ghouls...my dad's an official bad ass pumpkin carver <3

spider bite

hauntings 

our halloween lights :)

my body has been tired so i brewed some chamomile to calm my bones. delving into a scrumptious book later before bed <3

having a relaxing evening

She's pointing at the dog walking by..&& she didn't enjoy my tea very much...

The end.

Mornin! Only had three hours of rest and off to work I go :)

Lying here on my bed sipping on ice cold water and wanting to clean my room. I have to be up in the morning for work but I can't seem to find sleep. I think I'm just too exited about life so I'm not going to complain about never getting enough rest anymore because I'd much rather be manic then depressive right now. xx

I love this place but it's haunted without you. My tired heart is beating so slow.

Today woke up past 3pm. I've been soo tired since you've left. I just can't seem to get out of bed much anymore . The only reason I got up is because I knew ghost whisperer was on haha! I didn't even get to watch though cos I had to pick Jamie up because his car broke down. Typical. I did cry a little bit today for the first time in about 2 weeks. Ugh.
Around 8ish I went out and returned the pumpkin carving book from Walgreens, the LED candles from Safeway and the picture frame from Micheal's. I did spend the rest of the night in Micheal's though, I bought a pumpkin and ghost cookie cutter, Halloween cupcake liners, Halloween decorating sprinkles, and I bought this cute little snowman ornament that said 'Dad' for our Christmas tree. The bottom part was a bell, so cute!! Anyways I'm making some Halloween cookies and cupcakes on my day off soon, should be yummy :) I've been meaning to take photos of all the cute Halloween items I've gotten but haven't gotten the time, or maybe I have, just to lazy. Eh. Soon, promise.

Ghouls.

Now you're just somebody that I used to know..

He was everything I needed. I could have loved him, I probably did love him a little. I could have moved on but that wasn't my fate. And although I miss him and enjoyed our time together and the season that came with him, I'm glad he wasn't my future. Our first date we went to Oscar's Bar and then headed to the theater to see Jack Ass 3D, we went just as friends to catch up. We joked back and forth and we held good conversation but I really didn't see it going anywhere. He didn't seem my type and I just thought he was a cool guy, so when we drove back to his house I didn't expect for him to ask me to hang out again, but he did and I agreed, I mean why not. Our second date we watched the Exorcist. It was romantic. After, we sat in his living room, talking about exes and friends, stopping to take smoke breaks in his garage. He had a really nice car, and I can't seem to remember the name, that he had been building and working on since high school. I told him how you were into cars as well and graduated from Wyotech in Sacramento, and I told him about how Mikey was into trucks. He said that it was interesting that I was attracted to guys that liked working on cars, and I told him I could care less about cars and that I didn't know you guys were into cars until later. He laughed. He would lend me his sweater and it smelt familiar. He made me feel sexy and needed and complimented my boots and said I looked good in black. We'd come inside and it was instant warmth and smelt of his mother's fall candles. I was home. I think that's one of the things I'll miss, the warmth of his home, which as I lie here on my bed I can feel now. We sat back on the couch talking and he reached for the side of my neck, I shoo'd him away, I was scared, I thought he was trying to get a spider off of me. He gave me a weird look and laughed. I thought there was a spider on me. No, I was just trying to kiss you. Oh was all I could say. I kissed him mid sentence of saying something I can barely remember now. Things got heated but I didn't want to get serious yet so we just layed on his couch, him holding me. His eyes were the lightest of blues and they made me quiet and a little nervous for some reason. I guess I was just scared. I was really falling for him. He took me home and we were both silent.

It's Fall and it's day 16 of getting over you.

I'm currently laying in bed with a headache and I wish you were here tonight, I wish it was raining, and I wish I could fall asleep. Dad and I carved pumpkins and hung up our Halloween lights today. We ran a few errands and everything reminded me of you, like the songs on the radio, Chasing Cars, to the box of donated toiletries in the bank for the troops. I sat there in the passenger seat of the car thinking to myself, "I can't get a break from you." So everyday I wonder what you're doing at this exact moment. I hope it's what you'd hoped it'd be, or better. I hope you think of me while you're out there. I miss you.

Just like the seasons, people have the ability to change.

How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. Running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears. Wish you were here, but you're not so this season comes with anew; a new beginning, and new chapter, a new leaf. It's time for me to start living my life and so far everything has been going pretty smoothly. I've decided to go back to school this winter. I'm saving up for a new car. I have a few new projects I'm working on. And there is a possibility of moving to Seattle soon, which I haven't really decided on yet but we'll see. Everything just keeps falling deeper and deeper into it's place and I'm loving it. I am becoming more in tune with my own spirituality and more in tuned with nature. The more I learn the happier I am. I guess I just sort of got sick of people telling me what they think I should do and me doing what I thought people needed me to do. I guess I'm just going with the flow of the universe. I guess I've just decided that this is my life and my life may be long or short, but I'm not gunna waste a minute of it. xx

My whole life is a dark room. One big dark room.

I really haven't been in the mood to write about anything lately which is really disappointing me considering so much has gone on.

Today was my day off so Dad and I ran some errands around town. First we stopped to eat Taco Bell, then the auto licencing place, the bank, and then we went to pay the rent for the house. My dad was dancing to Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5 and stopped mid sentence to sing I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith ♥ It was awesome! I told him we needed to go one of his concerts and he said he's gettin too old! haha! After, we went to Home Depot to get a staple gun to hang up our Halloween Lights, which look so cool by the way, and then went to Safeway to buy a couple of pumpkins to carve. Our festive neighbors down the street were one step ahead of us and already decorated. Last year their yard was Halloween and then Christmas galore and so this year we're going to beat the competition :) I've already bought a few things for decorating inside but I still need to buy some things for the outside. I'm so excited, Halloween is my favorite holiday! Love it! I still haven't decided If I'm going to be Coraline, Lydia, or Marla Singer! Toughy! I'm hoping I don't have to work :(
Anyways, I need to repromise myself to write more. Also I need to take some photos of our decorations. <3

Going to be some tough competition this year ;)

Pumpkinhead

Presley and a ghost.

Me About You

I'm writing a novel. It's going to be about us. Our lives together and apart. How you've helped me more then you know. How I'm always falling and you're always leaving. How you leave me haunted and settling for less. This is Me About You.

My main man. My everything. My dad and I live in the same house but I still always miss him :(

As I was driving to work today at 2pm I saw a baby deer walking along side the freeway. I slowed down and looked through my rear view mirror, it eventually bolted back into the woods after a semi drove past. I was so relieved and hoping mama wasn’t too far away. On my way home from work at 6:40pm I saw the same baby deer again in the same spot, this time running along side the freeway. I looked in my rear view and he didn’t run back into the woods. I really wanted to cry, I didn’t know what to do considering it was almost 7pm on Sunday. I was tempted to call 911 :( I called my dad instead and he just told me he didn’t know who to call. I was silent for a moment before I gave my okay but he just knew that I was just so sad. Now it’s almost 10pm and it’s dark and I’m praying that the baby deer is safe and far away from the road. Go home baby deer.

Ugh, I just wanna cry and hold him and keep him safe.

"Things could be different and you could be happy. There is more out there and you're meant to go out and find it." --Me

To Do:

• Write Josh
• Buy Lotion, Body wash @ Walgreen's
• Red Bamboo, Star candle lanterns, teal, purple, and green pillows, dollar votive candles, hanging  pumpkin lanterns, lighted branches, bleeding candles, halloween items, purple and red glass bottles, candle holders @ Pier 1
• CD/Vinyl player, Purple flats, bleeding skull candles, orange lights, Perla's costume and pajamas @ Target
• Candle/Soap making kit, Posters, Halloween items @ Michael's
• Halloween snow globe, harvest/Halloween items @ the Dollar Store
• Purple comforter?
• Clean room
• Organize
• Wash towels, clothes, blankets
• Take clothes to Plato's/Goodwill
• Clean out car
• Make appt. with Mike @ WF
• Move room around
• Go through end of tumblr, go through drafts and delete in blogger, go through bookmarks follow and delete

I've just realized I can have my favorite this year without worrying about getting an attack :) 

This fall is going to be the best.

i can't wait for the leaves to change and the rain to come so i can get some hot coco, bundle up in lots of warm clothes, and start our weekly wintler walk and talks with danny and pearlie.

It hasn't been feeling like Fall at all :( Maybe I just need to get some fresh air.

Going downstairs to brew some hot tea and crossing off some things on my list of things to do today! I have been so lazy and procrastinating so much and I need to knock that crap off!

Song Of The Day:

It's just a bunch of hocus pocus.

I just got done watching hocus pocus, x factor, and now i'm currently watching don't look under the bed. After, i'm going to watch halloweentown :) I just found this youtube channel that plays all the disney channel movies and i am obsessed. so it's almost 12 o clock and i'm sitting in my room watching old favorites from my child hood. i have so much i wanna talk about, a lot of odd goings on in the past month, but i'd rather walk down stairs for an ice cream and continue watching movies :) tee hee

xx

i need to be in a new town with new people, a new scenery, new days and new nights. different air, different feelings. i need change. that’s all i want.

They're coming.

Wake Me Up When September Ends.

First Taco Tuesday ever.