En route to Vancouver.

I sank into the sea wrapped in piano strings. Few words could open me but you knew them all.

It's 11:30 pm and I'm sitting here in a cozy little motel wishing I could make some tea. I also wish I could say I miss home. I do in some ways, don't get me wrong, but I miss being in California more. I wish I didn't have to go home. I know I'm gunna have to go back to rain and snow. I don't mind though, I guess. It's all definitely bitter sweet. I'm very excited to be coming back in June for Skyler's graduation party!! I'll be able to stay longer and Steph promised we could explore more. I have a feeling I'm gunna love LA <3 Momma is applying for jobs next month and if she comes down I'm definitely following behind. I'm hoping I can move here a lot sooner then I had anticipated.

Ashley tried out for America's Next Top Model and I'm more then excited for her! I really hope she gets in! As soon as I got there I knew that it's where I need to be to pursue my dreams. I could just feel it in the air. I know daddy's gunna be upset but I know this is what I wanna do. It's time to grow up, it's time to take care of myself. I'm also gunna talk to my doctor about going back on that diet so hopefully by then I would have lost 20 more pounds :) That should be really exciting! I would only have 10 more pounds after that to be at my goal weight! WOO!

Anyways I went to my first wine tasting today! So much fun! Mom wants to go to a bunch of em this summer and I wanna learn more about wines, also getting buzzed is just a plus. Crap, I have so much to say and so many pictures to post but I'm tired and the internet connection in the motel is slow so I'll wait to get home to do all that. Also, I think there's a possibility that I'm gunna move in with my momma out in Wilsonville for a little while. I'll be able to get away again. I don't know but I'm really enjoyin life, not gunna lie.

Jake and Amber's wedding is this Saturday so as soon as I get back in town, I'm gunna be leaving once again. I'm kinda dreading this whole wedding thing. Eh, I'll just get drunk, whatever....

Off to sleep now, long drive back home in the morno!! I can't wait to see my pup <3333

xxxxxx

En route to Monterey.